It has been a few days since I posted a blog, so I thought I would take a few minutes to do so, even though I don't have much time.

I posted a blog a few days ago confused about what guy to choose. In my opinion they are all great, but my mom doesn't agree. There is only one my mom approves of and those who know me know why she wants me with this guy, even though I have no feelings for him.

Well, as difficult as it was, I narrowed it down to two choices:

1) Anwar
2) James (Jimmy) (my mom's choice for obvious reasons)

When I made my announcement to my mom that I had narrowed the choices down, I kept saying, "but then again there's Tommy" and my mom kept saying no, "You said Anwar and Jimmy" as if all that was set in stone.

I kept thinking about the situation. It was was a very hard to decision to make, but I knew I had to make my choice. I didn't choose Anwar. I thought about it and I realized that I will never be able to be with Anwar. He lives in Maryland and that is a very expensive place to live. I am just surviving where I am now.

So that left Jimmy. The only problem is that I don't love him and I can't force myself to love him. It just wasn't going anywhere and I don't see it going anywhere in the future.

I did choose one though and to my mom's disappointment, I chose Tommy. We are going to date and see where things go. In fact, he will be calling me any minute now and then coming over to pick me up for our date. I am actually happy about my choice and looking forward to seeing where it leads.